One Regret Led To Another

If I had to pick between you, you or you, I don’t know which one to choose. You have turned my life away the way that you might not know how far.
You, we spent some days together. My wall was still at its highest and strongest, blocked you away. You’re just way too perfect for me. You definitely deserve someone better. I wasn’t as grown up as I thought I was. Even now. Sometimes I think I might want you back in my life. But, I realize that it’s too late for that now. It might not be the best way anyway.
You, the one that I used to think as a brother of mine. I looked up to you, up till now, I listened to anything and everything that you said. I might even do it when you ask me to do bad things, which I believe you wouldn’t. You were there when I need you the most. You listened, you calmed my down. You eased my mind and brought the best of me like no one else could do before. I wonder would you still be there, be here for me tomorrow when there you were.
You… We started with me who wasn’t myself. Stupid me who was hiding behind that silly mask. I was hiding all my beauty behind the mask of clay. Would we be together if I were not wearing that mask? I believe we wouldn’t even know eachother if I didn’t. So call me stupidly selfish, but I don’t regret a thing I did, although I am not proud of it. I’m glad I knew you, I’m glad I got the best lesson of honesty, I’m glad I learned although in a hard way, I’m glad I could come out and throw that mask away at last. It’s a divine victory for me. I’m gladly relieved seeing us standing here, apart, in peace. After I hurt you, after I broke your heart.
This is better than I expected, although honestly, I still hope for more… I know I am blessed.