Saturday, January 22, 2011

A Step Forward

Every time I think I have given a step forward, I always afraid to be pulled back a few steps backwards. Leaving the scars open with no cure to close it.
Mixed up feelings stirred with the sharpest knife ever found. Making its way of creating a brand new scar. Unknown and indescribable. No words could ever express what it really is.
The footsteps were all there. Time still keep them well enough for me to remember. The happiness, laughter, smile, gladness, sadness, tears, anger, disappointment and everything in between. Crystal clear. Each with some sprinkle of feeling so safe and secure.
Still trying my best to get rid of that feeling and just focus on the now instead of wondering what might happen the next...

Monday, January 03, 2011

Only A Prayer Away

A friend who sings along together to any songs that we have ever heard.

A friend who dares to admit that I’m a friend when you did something crazy.

A friend that stands by me throughout my day, wherever I am and in anything I do.

A friend who always says that I did good in a thing that I’m worst at.

A friend who pats me on my back when I’m down.

A friend who wipes my tears and frown.


Yesterday was her birthday. One person that has taught me the true meaning of friendship that never ends. The youngest amongst us all but yet the most wise little girl I've ever known. She will always be the youngest now, she's gone, but only one prayer away :)


I’m not actually sure how we met, unless the fact that we were classmates during our first year in High School. Not exactly sure when we became best buddies but the fact that we were in a choir called UCV. We spent around 7 years together and the rest were apart. Started from High School until we graduated from the university and parted because you started to work at Jakarta while I stay in Bandung and so on. But, I could go on and on and on about great moments what we had together.


Remember when we were cleaning “all part” of the school together because the “petugas piket” forgot to pick the broom and dustpan? Remember all the stories from pictures that we took altogether? You were chosen as one of the Trio Kwek Kwek member because you chat a lot. Flo even threw a paper on me (or us) once because we chat. How we picked you as our Baby Spice since you are the youngest and together with Adek, Vita and Amel made noise all along during our FPS era, plus picking up some Spice Boys and Telletubbies of our own. I still remember the one that you have a crush on and how we laughed and cried together during the ups and downs of the competition. When we were in our last year of High School, the only time you would come to my classroom was when you have no homework, and we straightly said that to you every time you enter the room, “Ga ada PR, ya???” and laughed along afterwards.

We had a bit more fun during our college days. The only annoying things were when one day you came to my place, whiningly said, “Yiii… Gue bĂȘte. IP gue jelek…”and when I asked about the point, man, that was waaay higher than mine. And never forget when I came by to your place and you said, “Sori ya, Yi. Kamar gue lagi berantakan banget.” When I stepped in, it was very very very neat in my version. The next one was kind of annoyingly helpful. Everytime I said, “Ke… Pulsa gue abis…” You will always reply, “Udah, sms pake punya gue aja.” Because you have tons of call credit in your red Nokia cellphone. We always tried our best to made time to be around each other no matter how busy we were with our own activities.Andrew, Inneke, Monic, Danny, Aris and others were sometimes joining in.


You graduated first, find a job quicker and moved back ahead. The only thing that you keep saying was how you really really really want to go back to school. And after a quite long while, you had your wish and you graduated (faster, as always). Still can’t quite believe that you’re gone faster as well. Maybe you were born to live in fast lane :)

Won't ever forget your smile, how you sound and the way you talk. Won't ever forget your laughter and your freakingly innocent face when you did something stupid. You’re one hell of a friend.


A friend who sings along together to any songs that we have ever heard. A friend who dares to admit that I’m a friend when you did something crazy. A friend that stands by me throughout my day, wherever I am and in anything I do. A friend who always says that I did good in a thing that I’m worst at. A friend who pats me on my back when I’m down. A friend who wipes my tears and frown.


Friendship is overflowing, but to me you cannot be replaced. I will hold you tight in my dreams. Though you're gone, you're not as distance as it seems :)


Thanks for being there for me through every step of my life, together and apart. You were an angel then, a real one right now.


Love and miss you always... :) *hugs*

-Yiska- xx