Staring at you standing there
On the cliff of anger
On the edge of revenge
On the side of feeling invincible
Your eyes blaze a glance of dissatisfaction
Slowly grasping your balance
Your breath breathes fire
Calmly burning your patience
Your voice shouts your emotion of hurt, betrayed and destroyed
Steadily pushing you to the limit
You are beaten down, broken by your own worst enemy
You are inferring the inferno
Darkness silently creeps through the crack of that window
Slowly invades each light that trapped in the highs and lows
Blackened each shadow gathered on every side of the wall
The cold sleeps in when the heat wave shows their faces
Actively melt each frozen air that go around the mazes
Freeze into dissculptured silence that bonded in within its watchers
Disrupted with the noise that strikes out of the blue
Slashing the silence into pieces of deafening thing so untrue
Silently breathes each soul drawn vulnerable and breakable too
Look at the stars, I will take one down for you
No matter what the distance, I’ll see it through
I’ll fill you in between the sun and moon
‘Til the end I’ll be waiting
I heard the news that flew my mind way back when I lost you. The feeling I felt back then just came rushing back like a flood held by a strong closed steel door that just been opened. It hurt more than I thought it will. I guess I just missed you deeply.
And whenever in night, the lights go down
I know that you’ll go on to shine somehow
And even if you’re miles above the clouds
‘Til the end I’ll be waiting
It still stays in my mind the way that I held you tight in my arms. How you’d stop crying every time I carried you in my arm and sang you a song. The way you calmed yourself down comforted me and made me smile. I even called you my own back then.
Look through the dark, there’s a compass in the sky
If ever you’re lonely and question why
Remember that I’m always by your side
‘Til the end I’ll be waiting
And you, with your sweet smile, just like your brother. You shone your light toward each and every one of us. You were our best present on that Christmas with how you stayed up late and babbled your way up to the edge of the bed just to wake us up and played with you.
And even though we sleep like years apart
The galaxy away is not so far
Because we know the future is our dark
‘Til the end I’ll be waiting
I remembered how you kept ruining my wrapped presents and gave me that innocent angelic smile and laughed when I showed my upset look. My heart soon melted. And when I played and sang the Cupcake song, you did the same and always asked me to replay the song and you nodded your head.
Now I lay me down to sleep
I pray we’ll meet inside my dreams
If I should go before I wake
I pray our souls will join again
“You're my honeybun, sugarplum, pumpy-umpy-umpkin, you're my sweetie pie, you're my cuppycake, gumdrop, snoogums-boogums, you're the Apple of my eye. And I love you so and I want you to know that I'll always be right here. And I love to sing sweet songs to you because you are so dear.”
So long, my little dreamer, I’ll miss your face
We’ll always stay connected through time and space
The journey that we shared but now have to leave
Will live inside of us for eternity, yeah
I still couldn’t quite believe that you both gone shortly after those sweet memories that stick in my head. Stayed by your death-bed was the hardest thing to do. Praying and hoping you’d survive and even sang the song non-stop. But apparently God had better plans for you.
Destiny will be a part of you
I'll feel you in the atmosphere
And nothing will be left to fear
And there I was playing the song by your grave with tears that wouldn’t stop flowing and burning my cheek. Your smiles keep on making me smile, your hugs keep on warming my soul, your smells linger. There will be no way you would go away. You are both safe here in my heart.
So long, my little dreamer, I will miss your face
We'll always stay connected through time and space
And everything we hoped that could never be
Will live inside of us for eternity
Goodbye sweethearts. Go play with those angels and lovely fairies there in the land of eternity. Watch over us with your pretty wings and sing us songs to cheer us up. We will keep you in our hearts and forever be that way. Nothing will take you away or these memories inside.
I will be with you till the end
Always be waiting 'till the end
It’s not always easy to not think about what people are saying, no matter how far and serious you doctrinized yourself to not give an effin damn about what those freaky people have to say about you. Once in awhile, you will lose your self control that helps you being senseless toward the hurtful words. And there you are, break down, feeling worthless because nothing that you did is right.
Then, they would wonder how come that kind of speech would hurt your feeling at all. They would think that there was nothing wrong at all with what they did or say while others just laughing at you. Sometimes, they fired back at you, telling you that it’s actually you who hurt their feelings first and tried to turn the table around. Well, that’s a pretty lame excuses and so darn selfish when you did nothing beforehand.
You just want to scream and showed them that you were the one who was really been hurt. You want to give them mirror for them to see themselves doing that particular hurtful behavior toward you.
What gives for a wonderful relationship? Smile? Frown? Laughter? Tear? Promises? Honesty? Lies? Reasons? Money and all that glitters? Are all the above needed? Yes? No? A bit of this and a bit of that? Just the positive ones? Or you need the negatives as well? It’s common. Really?
So, what do you really need to have a good kind of relationship? Is it supposed to be filled with a lot of smile, laughter and laughter? Indeed. But, how if you found some frown, tears, lies along the way? Or even more as days go by and time walks on… Would you reckon that it won’t work?
And what about promises that you need to reassure yourself about all the good things that come along? It is something that sometimes couldn’t be kept and covered by cheesy reasons of any excuses could come up in the mind. It is actually something that’s easily made to shut your effin mouth up. Worthless… But you’re hanging in there anyway. Blindfolded by the beauty of the one who gives you empty promises with amazing words that sweetly heard by your innocent ears. You only hear what you want to hear and see what’s pretty in your eyes.
If one said love is blind, well, I got to say it truly is. Love makes you give your all in a relationship, even your dignity.
Love never meant to be hurtful for it to feels good. There may come a time when you have to shed a tear or two, and you shouldn’t complain about it. It’s something that you have to get ready for. You aware of the consequences, then deal with it. Don’t make it complicated as good relationships are not supposed to be complicated. If you doubt it, leave, before it ties you up and bound your soul you’re trapped in the core.
Hold on to your loved ones and cling on someone who you can trust outside the relationship, for them the one who can guide you from the blindness and to see wisely clearer. The rest is up to you. You’re the one who’s in this so-called relationship. You’re the one who knows when to go, when to fly and when to stop.
Like a star that shines so bright
You’re blinding me with your beam of light
As I walk this path of hope
Just when I’m ready to come
You walked away and keep coming back
And I won’t beg you to stay for whatever the facts
Now you are there
Hoping that I won’t care
But here I am standing
Waiting for something that has been missing
Like the rain that’s pouring down
You’re freshen me up in this tightening gown
Gown of unnecessary desperation
In need of reassuring expectation
When what we need is getting closer
The space between us is getting wider
Not knowing what to do
Have no clue nor do you
For what I have is what you see
Cling on me as now I’m free
This faith in me will stay
No matter what it will still that way
There’s always a line of limit for everything, whether you like it or not. There’s a line of time, space, situation and other things that might not cross your mind before.
You think you got into one perfect situation where all necessary points were checked. But, apparently you’re not because of that certain limit got in the way.
The line that you won’t ever able to cross…Ever! No matter how much effort you’ve made, how many changes you’ve been made and how flexible you adjust yourself to the terms of condition you’ve known all along.
That’s just how far you could go in some situations. Nothing you can actually do, but grieve and wondering what actually went wrong that you are unable to see in such perfect condition, what has been missing and left invisible. What is really going on.
Today was finally the day where I have to leave something, that once I called home and so precious, behind. Memories are left behind, with smile and laughter, frown and tears. Loved ones with teary eyes were barely holding their heads up, afraid of showing what they really felt, afraid of facing a new thing that might even better for them.
A relationship or two are broken. Some were pretended that it will last forever, but most of time it won’t. There wasn’t even a relationship to begin with. Some were trying their hard to make believe that such exist, not even stop when someone found out. It will be breaking along the way and the best will last, not much, but will be one, two will be lucky, and three should be grateful.
