"Aku benci dirimu"

Those are your very last words to me. Maybe you can say whatever you want to say. I deserve it. I deserve all your anger towards myself. I even hate myself for this.
Damn... I miss you, you know. But, sorry... it really has to end.

A night at a time...

Another day came by without you

I guess I'll be okay

Sorry for all the things I've done to you

I really didn't mean to hurt you

It wasn't because of you

It definitely has nothing to do with you

It's just me who doesn't feel the way you feel

It was just me who felt too scared to face anything

To step forward...

To be honest, even to myself

Sorry...

I'm sure you'll be okay...

Goodbye...

Have I Made the Right Decision?

When everybody still loved up after the valentine's day, here I am thinking if I made the right decision already by saying goodbye to him...
Many things have happened to us, the good, the bad, the in betweens, one thing led to another. So many reasons and explainations but yet s...
I still have doubts although at the same time I strongly believe that this is the best for both of us... plus, I still have butterflies flying around in my stomach...
Is it the way you feel when you make a right decision? Or it's the wrong one?
Oh dear Lord... please help me make it through each night...

The RAin Just Pour...

I know you've seen the rain before, but there was something different about this one... Money Rain??? Nope, I mean, it's just the rain, water kinda rain, but, it came so suddenly. Just like that and it was straightly a heavy rain...
Gosh, ehm, I don't actually know what I'm talking about...
Sorry...
Peace y'all...
PS. Rihanna's Umbrella should be more popular by now... :)

Why Can't I?

Gosh... I'm hating myself right now... Why can't I just kill that f***ing b***h? She's really getting annoying each and everyday... Gosh... I can't stop cursing myself right now. I never thought that kind of girl is actually exist... A girl who puts money and everything above it all...

Gosh!!!

I am sick!!!

Maybe, I wish...

I wish everything could go as simple as that, just like a snap of your fingers and everything could go your way, but unfortunately... the answer just has to be 'no'. Although it doesn't mean that there's no way at all, but still... sometimes it just harder than it seems...

But why? Why couldn't it be the way that I want?

I keep asking why, why , why and why to myself. I'm great in giving people answers, but I can't give any answer to my own question... So sad...

I wish i could be a more open person than I am today. Well, in fact, I don't think I'm that open anyway, maybe not even to myself. Sometimes I find it hard to understand the way I feel inside, or maybe just scared to look deep into my heart... to finally realize that it is what it is... and when I do... all just too little too late... or so I thought...