It's His Decision in the End

Heard the news in the middle of the day, about one of your loved ones, your best friend, laid in her deathbed, with only a very little hope, if you don't want to say no hope at all, was one of the most shocking news that can make your world stops in an instant. You stop while the world keeps on turning. Don't know really what to do but spreading the news to others and hope they send their prayers along with yours.
A friend who sings along together to any songs that you have ever heard. A friend who dares to admit that you're a friend when you did something crazy. A friend that stands by you throughout your day, wherever you are and in anything you do. A friend who always says that you did good in a thing that you're worst at. A friend who pats you on your back when you're down. A friend who wipes your tears and your frown.
Nothing to do and cannot do nothing. Both kind of annoying. Fingers crossed. Hope only for the best.
Leave it all to You, dear Lord. You're the one who knows what's best for each and everyone of us.

Loves The Crescent Moon On The Sky Tonight

If you really mean what you say of doing something good for me, then be it. But is that something good for me will always turn out to be hurting my feelings? If so, please, just stop. You don't actually need to do me any good. Just stop. Because at some point, I just can't handle it no more.

You said you care but you don't actually care at all about what I actually feel inside. I said it, but you always take it to the wrong direction and got me misunderstood. You just don't want to spare a little tiny time to think about what I said, about my feelings. Blinded by the rage that you got of someone else and you take it all out on me. You don't want to ever bother to give a time to hear my explanation. Not a bit.

I'm not that stupid little girl no more that can be bought by sweet words or any manipulative steps you're making. I have feeling that grows stronger and thoughts that become smarter. I think and I feel. I hurt and I heal. As time goes by, it will mend all the scar, but never know if they will recover when you keep on rip it open and leave it bleeds.

Oh, forget it, you never know that I have it anyway.

Please keep an eye open when you're too angry and can't seem to see anything clearly in order for you to give your best shot to the right target, not miss it for another and end up hurting innocent people. :)

10/10/10 - My Version

Okay, so here are some of the weird things that happen today. Why I said weird? Because apparently most people were acting weird today.

Some of them were turning mad, drown by their not so reasonable reasons. Possessed by inner evils that has been kept so well hidden. Burst into an inevitable rage that's unstoppable. Hurt some innocent people for just giving a small comment but got mistaken by the intensively wrong moment. Cannot do nothing right. Everything is just wrong. All wrong. And it goes on and on and on and on. Don't really know when it ends.

Some were just rambling for something that they thought they know they feel when they know nothing at all. Trying to find each hidden meaning of their lives, find any hidden ways that should been taken, but never found. Not a single clue and leave them in a confusing area and they got nowhere to go. They let themselves float around the questions that have been hanging around on their minds. Unanswered. They eventually will let themselves drown in an unnecessary emotion.

Well, and some just go on like any other day. With smile on their faces, tears running down their eyes and traffic cursing flowing through their mouths.

Etiket 10/10/10 - Ali Wardhana

Segala keresahan bersemayam untk apa????

Kesiaan tanpa bentuk

Menjalar keseluruh syaraf

Seperti racun yang membawa jiwa

Tenggelam dalam laut hitam pekat

Dan membuatku tak bisa bernafas???

Dan kau ...

Tak akan pernah mengerti

Karena ceritaku adalah cerita yg tercerna

Hanya untuk orang yang berada di balik bayang-bayang

Keresahan kawan dr seribu malam;

Kau kembali hadir tanpa bisa ditawar

Responsibility

Area Unknown

I sense your doubt

I sense your worry

“I don’t know” seems to be coming handy

To get out from the trap

That’s been set from one mishap

You say those so-called magic words

And gone away the curiosity

Ghastly got into the curb

And back for some insanity

“I don’t know” seems to be the only answer

But that’s not what I seek to be better

I want some precision

Not just something from the area unknown

To My Little Ones

I’ll send you one brightest star

Please have and put it above and not too far

For it will shine you through each way

From darkness to the light you will sway

I’ll send you one greatest smile

Please cherish and put it in your heart

For it will brighten you up when you’re down

Think of me once will turn your frown

One day,

I hope you’ll be your own star

Stretch the distance and reach as far

Light your own way through each path of smaller bar

With your own self made treasure

Constant Regret

Everytime you come back and step into my life

You’re ripping my heart

Burn it until it takes time to heal

I guess I can’t really quite over you just yet

Someone that I thought too precious to hold my love

Someone that’s been nothing but a patient angel

That lights each way of my life

I still regret the day that I walked by on you

I still hate myself for not cherishing your unconditional love

One Once Said Pt. 5 - SweetestSin_ox edition

"The saddest thing is to look in someone's eyes & realize they'll never love you the way they did."

"Do you know the most surprising thing about heartache? It does not kill you. Like a bullet to the heart or a head on car wreck, it should. When someone you've promised to cherish forever says "I never loved you," it should kill you instantly. You should not have to sit there day after day after that just wondering how in the world that you didn't figure it out sooner than this."

"Sometimes you’ll find yourself smiling while missing someone at the same time. And if you really need him, fate won't let you lose him. Fate will bring him back. It may not be soon, but he'll come back."

Source: http://sweetestsin-ox.xanga.com/692569910/cause-every-second-that-goes-by-i-feel-is-just-a-waste-of-time-if-im-not-with-you/

Time Looking

Pain

Blossoming Smile

You make me melt

Everytime you look at me with that look

Your smile shines through your eyes

And it makes me shiver

Your laughter blossoms through your smile

And makes me wonder

How do you do that all at the same time?

Thrills me mad

Can’t really hold my ground when you are around

Can’t keep my eyes off of you

I surrender

In your arms I shall belong

Naluri

Ketika hati diketuk

Insan berlari

Jauh

Sehingga tak tahu kemana pergi

Insan tak peduli

Tak berpikir dengan nurani

Hanya naluri

Yang tertanam di sini

Mata tertutup

Dan enggan berjalan lurus

Tak terlihat lagi harapan

Tak ada lagi asa

Semua hilang terkikis hujan

Lenyap terbawa hembusan angin

Tenggelam ke dalam samudra terdalam nan gelap

Dan tiada kehidupan

Lekang waktu terhenti

Langkah kaki terhimpit

Goresan luka terpatri

Batas sandar terlewati

I Stand Alone

I have expectations

I have hopes

Please don’t lift them higher

To eventually make me hurt

Let me live them in my own way

Because I’m the one who knows where it exactly lays

Here in my heart it floats away

Until one by one in my grasp stay

You don’t exactly have to support me

When you don’t know how to

Leave me alone and don’t stand by me

Because I don’t want you to

You only brought tears

And fake expectations

Carry and spin me in the wheels

While I’m counting hopes

Go away and don’t stop me

I’m ready to soar, no need to worry

I’ll fly higher than you thought I’d be

To the sky with no limits where you won’t find me

Whisper

Hey,

Do you really have to whisper every word you say?

When I don’t exactly hear a thing that comes out from your lips?

Speak louder won’t kill you if you mean well

If you think that it’ll hurt

Then, please just don’t speak at all

So that no one will get hurt

What a Joke!

Awkward

(Not) Signed, (But) Sealed, (Will Not Be) Delivered (to Anyone Else)

So, here it is, laid on the table in front of me, the most special 2000 Rupiah money that can cause a quite strong earthquake. Laminated, sealed, so no one will use it anymore.

Well, that’s just me and some of my friends’ opinion since there was an earthquake straightly after we accept this money. Don’t know what was actually gone wrong, though, and maybe there was nothing wrong that relate the money and the earthquake until we call it “Earthquake Money”. But we kind of dislike the person who gave it to us and that’s why we’re making fun of it.

Some of us decide not to use it anymore since it might cause another earthquake.

So unreasonable!!! Fun, though :p

Message in the Bottle Pt. 2

Need not to worry to show that you’re vulnerable

Need not to worry to show your tears

Need not to worry to let it out

I am here to take them all at the same time

I will sort it out

I will ease you down

Hold my hand and side by side we’ll walk

We’ll lost together and find our way back

Of better tomorrow that’s ready to be grasped

Message in the Bottle Pt. 1

I cannot wait to tell you that it ain’t worth it for you to chase that *itch. You might not feel that you’re good enough for anyone, but you are. You need to level up your confidence a little bit.

You keep saying that you are not that strong as I am, but I’m not as strong as you are as well and that’s why I’m here. Here, standing by everytime you need a hand to hold or a shoulder to cry on