It's Invisible

I keep on asking why on earth it has to be this way?

I was that close to get to you, but something was standing between us. Something invisible, that is. But we both see it.

I choose to ignore, and you choose to take care of it.

I don’t know why you chose that option, and I wonder how you will take care of it.

How could you take care something invisible? Just for the sake of time? Just for the sake of a memory?

It’s like playing with your imaginary friend, and me playing with David Cook. We just play with them in our minds. We can’t take care of them. They’re invisible. Even David Cook, the closest I can get to him is just by being his fan. I can’t take care of him the way I want to.

That’s all, that’s it, that’s all it is, that’s the way it is.

Nothing more.

You can’t take care something invisible.

It won’t talk to you.

It won’t be there for you.

It won’t take care of you.

It won’t be me…

I Want To Know What Love Is

“Love breaks your heart

Love takes no less than everything

Love makes it hard

And it fades away so easily”

Interesting line, isn't it? But, what is love and what is hate, for real? So many definitions floating around out there, scientifically or not. Here are some of them:

- Love usually refers to a deep, ineffable feeling of tenderly caring for another person

- Love is not a single feeling but an emotion built from two or more feelings.

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Whoops! That’s interesting on the love definition. It says that love is not a single feeling but an emotion built from two or more feelings. Is it saying that love has to consists of two feelings at least? What feelings would that be? Which feelings should be combined together? Anger? Lust? Loneliness? Happiness? Hatred? Care? What?

I believe that everybody has their own definition about this feeling called love. From the one that make sense or something that doesn’t make sense at all.

What about mine? What about my own definition? I have some and I still hold on to this definition of mine. I don’t know if this makes sense or not, but, it’s just my own and I feel good about it.

“Love is unconditionally blind”

Why is it so? Face it, all this time, when people love someone, it’s hard for them to think clearly. They don’t really care about their differences, since they think they can handle any difference that may occur alongside their relationships. Differences are one factor that makes love beautiful. Differences are the art of loving. This kind of difference is only beautiful in terms of love. In other terms? Hell no! You don’t like having something, let’s say food, different from the one that you’ve ordered. You won’t stay long with a friend that has too many different interests with yours. But, you would be fine if somehow the one that you blindly love has too many differences. You’ve been hurt too many times by those differences, but you would say you’d be okay, because you love that person. How come people like to be hurt all the time? It’s simply because this thing called love. They cannot see that they’ve been hurt badly. They enjoy it… because it’s love that caused the mess. Love wins! Love can hurt all they want.

But, I also believe that

“Love doesn’t hurt”

Love doesn’t have to hurt to feel good, to be beautiful, to be enjoyable. Love meant to be something that can make us happy. Then why should you cry? Why should you cry because of love? Shouldn’t your love protect you from every kind of sadness? Shouldn’t love kiss all your tears away? Shouldn’t love protect your heart from being broken?

Well, if you unconditionally blinded by the love you have, don’t complain, you shouldn’t complain since you are blinded by it, you shouldn’t see anything goes wrong. Just enjoy all the fun and the hurt that you have alongside your relationship. But, remember that love doesn’t have to hurt. You don’t have to be a fool to play this love game and got hurt here and there without you knowing since you are blinded by it. You don’t have to worry; you have people around you who love you for just the way you are. They will sincerely guide you through that dark road of yours. Just take time to stop, look and listen and ask again to your heart. Do you really want to be hurt by loving someone… someone that doesn’t really care about you they prefer to hurt you in any way they can, in any way that you cannot see them hurting you,,, again, because you are blinded by love.

Love… love… love… I’ve been hurt, I’ve been ignored, I’ve been careless, and I’ve been invisible. But, I will move on, with this love that I got inside my heart and from all the people whom love me just the way I am. I will still give my love unconditionally because I know that love doesn’t really have to hurt anyone and I know it certainly make happy... I will make sure I’m there when love comes around and hope I’m not surprised when true love knock at my door.

Happy valentine everyone!

PS. I know you don’t know, or just don’t want to know or find out, that I love you, but I do. I will give this love I have to you unconditionally, for all my life; I will always be there for you, anytime. Here I am, blinded by my love to you. It doesn’t hurt; it doesn’t have to, because I’m the one who choose to be in this situation.

Those Words

Those words make me shiver
as you come closer and whisper
Those words make me smile
in my lonely days that had been awhile
Those words make me want to hold you close
closer than you ever been before
Those words make me miss you
in an unbelievable way too
Those words...
are beautiful...
Those words...
will stay in my heart, forever...

Dear Life Pt. 2

Dear life,
it's exhausting living this kind of life
where there are too many stupid people
acting like they're freaking smart
Too many heartless people
acting like the care of others

Here I am, trying to be one of those people
not to be accepted,
not to be fit in,
but to survive

I am trying to be the meanest person
I never am...
but I need to be one.

If Tomorrow Never Comes

If tomorrow never comes,
please know that I have loved you everyday,
unconditionally with all my heart...

If tomorrow never comes,
please know that I have saved a special place in my pure heart
for the one and only you...

If tomorrow never comes,
please know that I will always be there by your side...

Worthwhile Teardrop

I’m happy
For the way we are
Although you can make me happier
Then why should I cry now?
Will a teardrop be worthwhile?

I settle for less now
I’ve dried my tears anyway
There’s nothing I can say or do
To change your blinded mind
It’s in your hand to decide

I’m letting go of what’s empty all along
I’m cleaning up the mess
I’m mending my broken heart
I’m moving on
At least, I’m trying to…

Starsun Flower

The clouds all gather around

Swinging with all their glory

Round and round

Dancing one and another

The wind then come

Blow its soothing yet surprising breeze

Rhythmically dance around the clouds

Gather them closer, abound

Come together, my cloudy cloud friends

Come closer

Let’s protect the sun who’s making love with the star

They shall not be seen

At least not by that blooming flower that stands alone in the meadow

It’ll wonder why…

Why this way after all this time

So let’s keep on dancing

Come together and come closer

Let’s cover up

Remember when the morning comes

The sun rises and the flower blooms

Blossom, alone in the meadow

And the whole day

The flower sparks its colorful smile

Until it’s time for the sun to go

Break the dusk and wait for another dawn to come

It gets closer but yet harder to grasp

As time goes by

As it comes to another day of life

So let’s keep on dancing

Come together and come closer

Let’s cover up

If tomorrow never comes

Hope that the sun knows and realizes

It has been loved

By the blooming flower that stands alone in the meadow