Solitude Labors

Walking in the midst of a land that I know so well

Following the path that laid by my eyes

Clean pavement with beautiful view in every cell

But it's hot like hell yet very cold as an ice

Try to find the center of it

Through these black bricks of a winding road

Ain't no road that's easy enough to hit

So I just continue and welcome myself aboard

Searching in high bushes

Looking in a hidden place

Exploring in the tall grass

Seeking in a major mass

Staring at a steel fortress with thousands of soldiers

A flag is dancing free in its pole high in the air

Stating the fortress as a solitude labors

Where everything is impossible and nothing is fair

All efforts ends in a reluctant success

Going around and try to find an entrance will be helpless

The wired wall won't come down by itself

Desperately filling self but ends up hopeless

Invisibility

Things change one way or another

People come and go sooner or later

No power created in the palm of the hands

To avoid the moments in the sands

No more tears left to shed

No more words left to be said

No more smile left to shared

No more laughter left to laid

All gone scattered in many direction

Invisibility covered with such gracious transparent

Left one stranded in a middle of nowhere

With nothing to hold on to and nothing to spare

Invisibility tried to catch up with darkness

Invisibility tried to dance with loneliness

Invisibility tried to humor the bitterness

Invisibility tried to sing for the emptiness

Nothing seemed to work

Shielded by a power so grand and bold

Playing every exist wrong piano chord

To a failing epic love song like a dirty pork

Can't find any other way to move away from this invisibility

Can't find any other way for people to see

Can't find any other way to show off the availability

Can't find any other way to scream about this consistency

Trying so hard ain't getting invisibility a chance to shine

Drag them off the box where they can lean

Wish for being invincible and lead the front line

Than being invisible and not being seen

Sadly, I'm Right...

I've always sensed that something went wrong. Wasn't quite sure what it was, especially when no one said anything.

Things were forced to please people one way or another. Didn't quite working well. Instead, me, personally felt really hurt. Seems like all my effort was worthless. Nothing was right when perfection was already impossible. Knowing nothing might be suck, but, knowing everything could be suck even more. Both ways were annoying.

Now, I found the clue that explains everything. Why things have been like this and such. Surprisingly, it wasn't surprising at all. Although I have to admit that it was making me wonder and flattered at the same time. Funny how it made me feel that way, right?

Puzzled, as always, and it's making me think about how should I react in this situation. Be quiet isn't taking me to a spot where I always wanted, but making a slight move is not helping at all. Searching for the best way to accomplish the mission.

Hurt but barely could cry. One wish had come true, not to cry over this and just be brave enough in going through every bit of this. This heart has beaten out of my chest, screaming out to be let go of every little bit of strong emotion. It screams in silence I can't even hear, but surely can feel every strong beat of it. Determined, but helpless.

This brain wants to go where the heart doesn't want to even tiptoe in. Sure they both going to the same final point, the only problem is the way they have decided to board on. Split between two indecisive major parties. Difficult to choose one and leave out the other when both have a really strong connection. Both made me myself, who I am today. Both constructed me to be a well human being. Not perfect, but just enough to light one candle for the whole wide world.

If Only Words Could Come Easily

Many times I bite my tongue just to prevent myself to say what I should say straight to your face. Many opportunities wasted just because I feel afraid of what the result might be, for what I believe, it has a very big chance of me losing you in one way or another. I never wanted for that to happen at all, for what we have right now is something that I truly treasure and appreciate.

So, what now? Nothing, I guess. But constant prayer every time I think of you. And hints, yes, something that I rely on lately. Hints I've been given and clues I've been telling.

All is hidden, all is kept so well. Incapable of bare everything down the winding road. It goes too long to be able to be explained. It's way more complicated and filled with bumpy hinders here and there. Unable to straight them down. Crumpled into one big ball of hope with no core.

Blindly driving the blinded emotion that gets the best of the most logical logic. Beaten by the anxious that keeps creeping and eating each little core of poor courage. Damaged and supressed. No way out. Just stuck there, wondering when will this wandering ever over and where it may lead. To my path, or someone else's...

Missing You

Why would this anger come when what I actually feel is missing you?

Why would this feeling of being ignored is dancing around my head when what I actually feel is missing you?

Why would this jealousy taking over me when what I actually feel is missing you?

Why would I act hostile to you when what I actually feel is missing you?

Why would I rambling off my head when what I actually feel is missing you?

Why would I want to forget you when what I actually feel is only missing you?